Connections

To give you a little insight into a waiting adoptive mommy's world: 

I have a confession...I'm attached to my computer. ugh.... Every day after the kids are off to school, I search for any new information on Jerry or progress with our adoption. We (us adopting mamas) get STUCK to our emails, FB and computers. Sometimes one picture is the ONLY thing you have of your child. And that one picture is the only connection to YOUR child. So we search hoping for more insight, more pictures, more connections.  

It's hard to explain. But the MOMENT you say yes to your child, the MOMENT you let them into your heart....God grows massive roots for that child deep into your soul. My love for Jerry is just as strong, just as real, as my love for the 5 sweet babies I can love on each day. JUST as real. Since I can't love on Jerry, can't ask him about his day, or see how he is feeling, or cook for him, or look into his precious eyes.....I look into his pictures and videos...over and over again! We (waiting mamas) study every detail of every photo we have of our child. I remember the day I visited New Hope, days before I met Ellie, it was very surreal. I remember standing in one of the rooms that was the background for several pictures I had of my baby girl....several photos that I had studied at length over the previous year. I just stood there....knowing she played there, cried there, slept there, and was loved in this very room. I felt like I had known every detail of that room since I had studied it for so long in every picture looking for more clues. My connection to her grew even more that day. And I knew a little more about her even though I had yet to hold her in my arms.

Some days I feel like I know my boy just by listening to his videos over and over again. Yet the reality is there will be so much to learn. And I really cannot wait. I know he likes to sing, I know he likes the colors blue and red, I know he likes dogs. But what about his fears, or what makes him laugh, or what comforts him? All of these things will be unfolded as we spend time together, and God grows our bond. That time is getting so much closer.

As I am busy packing and preparing to leave, I know his amazing foster home is preparing him as well. It will be so hard for Jerry to leave his foster parents. His foster mother knows his fears, she knows what makes him laugh, and what comforts him. She has known him and has loved him dearly for the last 8 years. My poor sweet boy --- saying good-bye will be so hard. I pray every day (all of the time really) for God to continue to prepare his heart. I have asked our Lord, and I trust HE WILL give Steve and I the graces to best be able to comfort Jerry and show him the depth of our love. Please keep praying for him, please continue to pray for all of our family.

For now I leave you with some of my favorite photos--

So you too can get a glimpse into my amazing son's personality!! Some of these are a little older.

The beauty of answered prayers

God hears our cries.  He does!!  Sometimes it's hard to see how He answers our prayers, or why He leads us in a particular way.  Sometimes it feels as if He isn't even listen.  But oh, He IS listening and always orchestrating the beauty of our lives.  Tonight I want to write about an experience our family has had to witness the beauty of answered prayers.

Back in March the children and I had an amazing opportunity.  We were able to spend two days with 8 pretty awesome kids, that happened to be orphans from Ch*na.  These sweet children were sponsored by our adoption agency and were attending a two week camp here in the US.

 The first day we spent with the camp children we were able to play with each of them, and get to know their unique personalities.  I watched as Thomas (despite differences in language) helped a little boy catch crickets to go fishing.  Jon and Anna enjoyed playing games and jumping on the fun jump with all of them.  Ellie enjoyed painting and playing with all of the children so much as well.  However she had a hard time understanding why even though they were from Ch*na like she was, why they had to go back.  She couldn't understand why they didn't have their own families.  It was a deeply emotional experience watching her interact with children her own age or a little older, that are still fatherless.  Clare fell completely in love with one precious little girl, named Lucy.  Tiny little Lucy, with a personalty twice as big as her body, grabbed hold of Clare's finger and her heart all at once.  She tugged Clare around the entire day....going from game to game.  Clare's heart was overflowing.

 And my heart was overflowing watch my children serve and minister, play and learn.  As the day ended and we packed up to head home, all of our hearts were saddened.  The ride home led to some very big discussions that we had grazed upon before, but this time it became deeper.  The same little boy that was playing ball with Jon was going to have to go back to his orphanage in just one week.  Did he even have a ball of his own waiting for him?  The same sweet girl that we watched pick flowers was going to have to go back to her orphanage uncertain of her future.  We began to pray.  Sure, we have prayed for orphans before, but this time their prayers were for specific, beautiful children, their new friends.   Ellie, Clare, and I were able to spend one more day with the camp children.  We had a day to play one more time together at the Children's museum.

Of course, the entire day, Clare was Lucy's shadow.  I could see the pain in her eyes, the closer the day came to a close.  As she gave her one more hug, and we helped her on the bus, Clare could not contain her emotions any longer.  I have to tell you, that my Clare, is one strong cookie.  She is not typically emotional, or a crier.  But this time, she was so heartbroken.  She pleaded with me, pleaded with her daddy to adopt Lucy too.  She couldn't stand the idea of her being an orphan one minute longer.
Oh sweet baby girl.....I KNOW that feeling oh so well.  
It's one thing to think about orphans and fatherless children when you hear about them on the news, or read about their stories online.  But when you see their smiles, you hold their precious hands, you hear their laughs, or wipe away their tears....your heart is changed FOREVER!

This is a time when you wrestle with God.  How can their be so many....SO MANY children all over the world, that are alone???  Why??  Just as my compassionate daughter felt for the very first time...she questioned, and pleaded, and begged.  There were several nights of crying about sweet Lucy, and all of the children we met.  We all prayed for them every day that they would find their forever families soon.  I have to admit, I did ask our adoption agency about bringing two children home at one time.  We were told that considering Jerry's age and medical needs, that it was not possible.  
Yet GOD answers prayers!  He is always working.....even when you don't think He is even listening.

As the months went on, Clare still asked why we couldn't bring Lucy home too.  We continued praying.  And my heart would sink every time I would see somebody advocating for her, and see that she was still waiting!!  In my heart I knew God was preparing the BEST family for this amazing little firecracker, but I was growing some what impatient.

Well in the beginning of June I answered a facebook post from a fellow adoptive mom regarding medical questions.  This very sweet mama and I chatted for awhile over the phone.  After a while she began to explain that she and her husband were reviewing a file of a little girl.  She began to tell me more about the little girl's file she was holding onto.  It didn't take long for me to figure out that she was talking about the very same LUCY we had the joy of meeting in March!!!  Oh.....I could not stop talking.  I poured out every good and wonderful thing I could think of to tell her about Lucy.  I offered to send every single picture we took of her during camp as well.  I probably scared the sweet girl!  Ha!!  My heart was SOOOOO happy.  After hanging up with her, I went to my Lord. I begged God to make His will known clearly, that if this wasn't going to be Lucy's family, that she would find them soon.  Of course I told Clare when she got home, and she began praying as well.  

Several weeks later we learned that Lucy was matched with sweet Aimee, the sweet mama I had the privilege to chat with over the phone.  We were all so very happy.    
Then just last week Lucy finally met her forever family!!!!  She has one amazing mama and baba (daddy). She has a great big brother, and a huge family that is totally in love with her.  God is so very good!!  We love you Comer family....even though we've only met your baby girl!  

It was such a amazing gift to watch God unfold His beautiful plan.  As a family, we were able to experience an answered prayer in a totally different way.   I'm happy to report that 6 of the camp children have found their forever families!!  These two precious boys are still waiting.

Will you join us as we continue our prayers for them?  Please lift Lucy and her amazing family in prayer as well.
And of course please continue to prayer for our Jerry.  God has answered so many prayers already for our sweet boy.  I just cannot wait to watch as our family experiences the beauty of THAT one answered prayer...the prayer to have him home forever.

His name, his BIG beautiful name

When we started this adoption journey one of the things I was fretting over was what our newest son's name would be, the name we would have to give him once we officially adopted him. Of course he does have a legal name now.  His Chinese name is beautiful.  Unfortunately I cannot share it now for his safely.  This name was probably given to him by the orphanage that first received him in their care. Just as we did for Ellie, we will honor his heritage, and keep it as his middle name.

However...the reason I was stressing about our son's name, is that I didn't want us to make a mistake. He is 10 years old. Anna is 10 as well. If we were to ask her if she would choose a different name...she just might. Sure she likes "Anna", the name we gave her, but wishes we would have called her Charlie, the name we would have given if she were a boy....seriously, she asks every now and then if we can change it!
Our sweet son has lived a life, his own life for 10 years without us. He will have to endure so many changes because of us. I didn't want his name to be one change that he would really not like. It was so easy for Ellie. She was young enough that it didn't seem to phase her that we weren't calling her Xiao Fang. I knew it could be very different for our boy. So I prayed about it ...ALOT.

Over the next couple of months I started getting some amazing insights from people who had met our boy at his foster home. It really has been such a blessing to talk with amazing volunteers and fellow adoptive parents that have met our son. There were many things common they said in common about our beautiful boy....that he is a joy, that he is sweet and funny, and that he has a great outlook on life. They all also said that he wants to be adopted. Something else that several have shared is that he has an English name he uses with the American volunteers and at his international school. I was amazed that he already had an "English name"...a name HE chose to use on different occasions. After speaking to one of them, we realized just how much he really likes his name "JERRY"!

Okay I have to be honest....it wasn't one of our favorites at the beginning. It wasn't a fan fav of our kids either. One of them said, "you know if we name him 'Jerry' that we will mean we will have 'Tom and Jerry' in our family"!!!! HA! Yet the more we discussed it, and prayed about it....the more obvious it was to us. This was HIS decision. I was so worried about making a change he didn't like, but God already had it worked out.

This will go in the room shared by Thomas (Tom) and Jerry!!

Jerry it is! And really now, several months later....I can't imagine naming him anything else.
As some of you know, each of our children have been named after saints. We have hoped that by honoring their saint namesakes not only will our children have special intercessors for the rest of their lives...they will have great role models to exemplify.

Clare is named after St. Clare of Assisi, one of our favorites! (the saint....we don't have "favorites" amoung our children..ha!!  They are ALL our favorites, right?!?!
Jon (Jonathan Paul) is named after St. Pope John Paul, the great hero of our generation. And I could do an entire blog post on why he is named Jonathan and not John, uh ehm, right, Steve, my love?
Anna Therese is named after St. Therese, the Little flower. As I have written so many times, St. Therese is one of my besties! Hehehe
Thomas Michael is named after St. Thomas Aquinas (the church parish we met at in college) and after my amazing grandfather, Thomas. Of course he always reminds me about St. Michael, "the big angel"!
Ellie (Elizabeth) named after St. Elizabeth Ann Seaton. We knew we liked Ellie for her name, and thought of Elizabeth for her full name, but couldn't decide on which St. Elizabeth. While we were waiting in her adoption process I started learning about St. Elizabeth Ann Seaton. We learned that the very first school she opened was very close to where we lived in Maryland. We were even able to visit her shrine while we were there. Ellie's picture was placed on the alter there asking for prayers and blessings.

Jerry is a great name....but not a saint name.....well not yet anyway. We needed to decide on a saint name. We learned that the name given to him at his baptism was Anthony! Anthony is a great name, and will also be part of his full name. Yet I don't think we could get "Jerry" out of "Anthony". So I went to google....I looked up several possibilities, but none that felt right for our Jerry. That was until I searched "patron saint of orphans"...

This is what I found http://catholicexchange.com/st-jerome-emiliani. Check it out!!!

St. Jerome of Emiliani is the patron saint of orphans! Ahhhhhhh

The story continues....after I read the story of St. Jerome, I realized his feast day is Feb 8! This past year Feb 8 was the day we decided to start telling everyone we found our son, and were starting the adoption process!
And it continues.... Chinese New Year occurs on a different date every year (it's based on the lunar calendar). Guess when Chinese New Year occurs this upcoming year, 2016...... Feb 8!!!!! So cool, right?!?! St Jerome, please pray for our son.

I cannot wait to write Jerome Anthony (insert Chinese name) Gautreaux on his adoption paperwork!
Thank you Dear Father for always showing us how you are working out this adoption journey. Our son's name was written on Your heart long before it was whispered on our lips. Please bless our Jerry (Jerome), fill his spirit with joy and peace. Please guide each step we take closer together, and continue to prepare his heart for the changes he will endure. Pray for us, sweet Mother Mary. Pray for us, beloved St. Therese. Pray for my son, St Jerome.

This was a prayer I found:
St. Jerome Emiliani, our country is in such need of your powerful intercession before the throne of God. So many children are orphans of broken homes, some are missing and others have been used for evil purposes on our city streets. Even worse than this, people are killing children before they are even born.

Inspire parents to adopt orphans. Help us to have your fervor for all children, especially those in most need. Finally, we ask you to transform us into children so that we may one day enter the Kingdom of Heaven and with you praise the Holy Trinity, Father, Son and Holy Spirit forever. Amen.

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Birthday Blessings

I know it's been soooo long since I've updated our blog.  We have been busy enjoy a great summer. Our family has had such a wonderful summer, and it went by way too quickly.  Tonight I would love to share with you about some amazing BIRTHDAY blessings that we received throughout the last couple of months!!!

Our precious boy's 10th birthday was at the beginning of the summer.  Leading up to his birthday I was getting pretty sad.  As you may know....I LOVE my children's birthdays!  Steve jokes with me that they just don't have a birthDAY...they have a week long celebration!!  To make it worse, this year was our guy's big 10....double digits.  Knowing that we were going to miss another birthday, we were all getting bummed.  When we were waiting for Ellie we missed her 2nd birthday.  It so diffictuly to be away from your child on their birthday.  However...God made Ellie's birthday magical for us.  You can read about it here.... http://loveneverfails-gautreaux.blogspot.com/2011/11/happy-2nd-birthday-ellie.html

Even though it saddned my heart to not be with our birthday boy.  I was overjoyed when we received this picture of his birthday celebration with his foster family.  He is so loved at Little Flower. We are so thankful for them!

Since we couldn't be with him on this birthday we wanted to do something to celebrate him and the beautiful life our Lord has given to him.  We thought it would be fun to throw a party in his honor.  As we continued to think and plan out the idea, we thought a fundraiser would be great too!  We would hold a fundraiser for our adoption expenses and for his medical needs foster home, Little Flower.   What started as a small idea....blossomed before our eyes.  Through the generous donation of Backbay Bounce and More we had a huge water slide for all of the kids to play on.  They even donated a snow cone machine to use at the party to cool off with in the afternoon.  It was a really great time for everyone.

I cannot wait to share with him how very loved he is already!  

He has so many friends that cannot wait to meet him.

Many friends and family attended our Celebration of Life for our precious boy.  During the party we gathered all of our party guests around and "introduced" them to our son.  Through pictures and stories we shared a glimpse of the amazing child we are working so hard to bring home.  We also shared a look into the tremendous work Little Flower is doing for so many children.  If you would like to read more about Little Flower, and see for yourself how they are saving precious little lives every day, go here...            
                                                http://chinalittleflower.org
Please keep them in your prayers as they work each and every day caring and loving so many medically fragile babies and children.

After our presentation, we had a big announcement.....we told everyone our son's name.
 His name is Jerry!  Stay tuned for the story behind his name...that post is coming...eventually!

We were so very blessed with Jerry's party.  We were able to raise a grand total of $900.  So we have shared half of our donations with his medical needs foster home.  We pray that this amount that has blessed us will continue to bless others.

Adoption can be costly. It will cost approximately $33,000 to bring home our son.  So far we have paid $13,500 in adoption expenses.  A wonderful organization, Reece's Rainbow has a grant for us to use just for Jerry's adoption.  Before we even started the process, several adoption advacates were praying for Jerry.  They were worked hard to raise money to help his future family.  Since we have the priveledge of being that family, we are able to use the $9,686 Reese's Rainbow raised to help with our adoption expenses!!  Wow...can you believe that???
 So....since the party we are now at $23,636.  We still have a ways to go before we are "fully funded".  

Our Lord has graciously provided so much already, and we trust that He will continue to provide the rest of the journey.

If  you would like to donate towards our adoption expenses.  Please go here....
                                 http://reecesrainbow.org/93393/sponsorgautreaux
or the button at the top right of my blog for Reece's Rainbow.  If you go to this site, you will see that his name is "Sulley".  This was his "advocate name".  For the safety of the children their real names aren't used while they are waiting to find their family.

Another birthday blessing that we received this summer was our dossier being sent to Ch*na.  Our dossier is all of the paperwork and homestudy we have been working on since February.  In fact, it was sent over to Ch*na on Steve's birthday, what a great gift!

How close are we to bringing our son home???  Well we get closer every day.  Right now we are waiting for Ch*na to issue our Letter of Approval notice (LOA).  This wait is very unpredictable....it could be as early as 3 more weeks, or another 2 months.  Once we have our LOA, the wait is more predictable.  It is usually 10 weeks to travel from the issue of our LOA.  We are still hoping and praying to have him home for Christmas!

I have been trying to keep up this blog.  But if you would like more frequent updates, you can follow our journey our on Facebook page here...
https://www.facebook.com/groups/1466832850299736/


Please join us in praying for our Jerry's heart to be prepared to leave Little Flower and join our family.  Please pray for all of the orphans, especially the ones in the care of Little Flower and New Hope.  

As always thank you for following and praying along with us.

One piece of paper

I'm going to be honest....I've struggled this week.  In the roller coaster of the adoption process this week has definitely been one those LONG stretches where nothing is happening....and you can't even see the end, or the beginning, or the fun....You just keep waiting for something to happen.

Blah...yes, I'm being whiney!  Give this girl a break, our son's birthday, 10th birthday, recently past.  And I couldn't be there....AGAIN.  I've missed a grand total of 10 birthdays*whine*cry*pout!  I love him with a love that knows no borders...and yet I feel like I cannot show him my love.  Have you ever read the great book, The Five Love Languages, by Gary Chapman?  If you haven't I highly recommended it.  I gleamed so much insight not only into loving my husband, but my children as well.  While reading I also learned that my love language is "service".  I give and receive love best in "acts of service".  Well here comes my frustration....right now I can do NOTHING for my son..no act of service....nothing to speed up the process to get him home.  Nothing for him to show him how much I love him, how much I want to know him more.  I can do nothing to get to know him better, nothing to teach him.  I can do nothing to show him how much my heart aches every day we are apart.
                                              NOTHING....

You see we are in the "awaiting Immigration approval" phase of the adoption process.  We sent our completed home study and application to the US Immigration Department.  They review our "file" and then issue us an appointment to obtain yet another set of fingerprints.  Once our fingerprints are approved, the give us an approval notice.  That approval notice is the last piece of paper for our dossier, or packet of paperwork, that is sent to Ch*na.  Then we wait on them for the next step.  But right now....it's the ONE piece of paper that is standing in our way of moving on to the next step. Every day....I anxiously await the mail....hoping to see that little sheet of white "gold" (just the paper with our fingerprint appointment).  So far....NOTHING!

After crying yet again today, I prayed.  And this time, instead of begging and asking...(why Lord?, this is what I want Lord? can't you see, I'm waiting Lord, my son is waiting, and he has waited so long already?  why? when? NOW!!)

THIS time I surrendered....I let go.  Yes, I've done this with so many situations....I've advised others to just "Let Go and Let God"....but sometimes I forget.  I get caught up in my own pain, my own PLAN, sometimes I don't want to let go.  But today, I let go and listened.

And this is what what I felt....

        Faces of very dear friends came to my mind, my heart.  These friends are carrying such heavy burdens right now.  They are waiting on God right now too....

             Yet their wait is for a reason so much greater that one piece of paper....

  They are waiting for Him to protect their job,

                        save their marriage,

                                    cure their cancer,

                                              heal their sick child.

There are children still fatherless, waiting, and asking God for a family.  
 

I listened to what the Lord had reminded me of, and that small piece of paper....didn't seem so far away, or so vastly out of my reach.  God's plan is perfect and beautiful.  The cross we must bare now is only a glimmer of the joy we will see one day.

 I will wait upon the LORD....
       and try to remember to let go and let God....over and over and over again...even if the mailbox is still empty tomorrow.

After all, he will be our son on this Earth...but he is HIS son forever!

Labor pains

This Thursday my sweet Anna Therese will be 10 years old.  I remember that day like it was yesterday.  She was my third biological child, but would be the first I would labor and deliver "naturally", with no epidural.  Don't leave my blog please..... I have a point here.... hang with me...

There are many reasons I chose to go natural with her labor...and many reasons I am so grateful for the way her BIRTHday unfolded.   With my dear friend, Lindsay there at my side as my nurse and friend, and (of course) my wonderful husband dutiful holding my hand and rubbing my back (only when asked...hehehehe...I think he is still scarred)....Anna came into this world on May 21, 2005.  As a labor and delivery nurse I have recalled the feeling of labor several times, trying to explain to a patient how it may feel.  I have explained different ways of how to prepare for that moment....the moment when your body hurts more than it has ever hurt before.  When the pain comes on so fierce that you feel like you will be ripped open wide, but then it subsides ever so briefly.  The brief calm is only shortened with the thought that the next wave of pain is only moments away.  Labor pains hurt.  There is no sugar coating it. (Don't worry...I explain it more thoroughly...and nicely... for my patients!) Yet there is NO way to explain the moment of relief, joy, elation you feel the very moment your child leaves your body and enters this world, taking their very first breath. It is a joy like no other!! Having labored in pain for hours, praying with each breath, crying for mercy with every contraction....and holding onto to my husband and friend as they prayed and cried with me...I felt the depth of sacrifice it meant to be a mother.  Pure joy!!

Every labor pain reminds a mother of the sacrifice they make for their children throughout their lives.  In my 13 years of being a Labor and Delivery nurse, I am still in awe of the beauty and miracle of childbirth.  I am privileged every day I get to go to work and help a mom labor and deliver her child.  And my heart has been broken for those mothers I have cared for through the years that labor and deliver a child who will never take their first breath.  Those are the birthdays that are the hardest to witness.  Those mothers are heroes that never get enough honor.

Back to the point of my story....

Whenever it nears one of my children's birthdays I think back to their pregnancy and the days leading up to their delivery.  Anna's pregnancy was wonderful.  I worked up until the day she was born. In fact I was supposed to be on duty that day, and not a patient...oops!  As I said her delivery was beautiful.  I was able to give her her very first bath. She feel asleep warmly in her Daddy's arms just hours after she was born.  It was a beautiful blessed day for our family!

Anna just days old

Our precious son waiting in China will also celebrate a birthday very soon.  He and Anna are only weeks apart!  As he turns 10 he will celebrate his last birthday in China with the only family he has ever known.  I am so grateful he will be surrounded by his loved ones on his big "double-digit" day!!

Our son with his amazing foster family!!

 But my heart is saddened that we will miss yet another birthday with him.  From this year on....as I remember Anna's pregnancy and birth.....I will remember his birth mother and the sacrifice of her love.  Did she have support with her on the day he was born?  How did she and his father make the decision to let him go?  Unfortunately we will never have those answers to give our son.  But we will tell him that we are forever grateful to them that they choose to give him LIFE! They will always be in my heart and prayers.

Even though I didn't have to bare the pains of labor for Ellie or our son, I am enduring the pain of waiting.  Just as there are waves of pain, and waves of relief....there are so many ups and downs of emotions during the adoption process.  Yet I have so many dear friends at my side holding our hands., and (of course) my dear husband dutifully supporting me (rubbing my back...ha.....seriously, he's amazing!)

I know one day in the near future we will at last be together.   Just think next year I'll have twins (well a couple of weeks apart).....ahhhhh.....Anna thinks that is so exciting!!

“I would have given anything
to be the one to know
the pain of bringing you into this world
but it couldn’t be.
Though I did not bring you here
still I labored in my tears
through the long nights I prayed
you would come to me.
You are the labor of my heart Child,
you are the labor of my heart
with all my strength I prayed
till they laid you in my arms Child,
you are the labor of my heart
Blessed be the maker
of bone of other bone.
He made flesh of my desire
and today I take you home…
You are the labor of my heart Child,
you are the labor of my heart
with all my strength I prayed
till they laid you in my arms Child,
you are the labor of my heart Child,
you are the labor of my heart.”
Author Unknown

A shower of roses

God has a beautiful way of unfolding a story.  Throughout my life there has been a faithful friend of mine that has prayed for me, watched over, and guided me along my path.  This friend lived a very short time in our world, but spends her eternity blessing and loving others.  

St. Therese was born in France one hundred years before I was born...and sadly died at just 24 years old.  She lived her short life for Jesus.  Being ill, she was unable to perform "great"works for God's people.  Instead she chose do every little task for her Jesus.  She loved Jesus with everything in her being.  She wrote...

         " I desire no sensible consolation in loving; provided Jesus feel my love that is enough for me. Oh! to love Him and to make Him loved...how sweet it is..."


I learned about St. Therese in 8th grade before I received the Sacrament of Confirmation.  During preparation we as Catholics are encouraged to learn more about one saint. We use that Saint's name during our sacrament, and ask them to pray for us throughout our life.  They become like our role models.  To be honest, I'm not sure what drew me to St. Therese to begin with...except roses!  She is called the "Little flower"...and roses are her symbol. In fact, with her novena we ask her to pray for us, and "pick us a rose from the Heavenly garden, and send it us with a message of love from our Father."  The more I learned about her, the more I became inttrigued and desired to be more like her. 

  Throughout my life...I have asked St. Therese to pray for me.  Just as my dear friends here on this beautiful world do...she has been there for me, to pray for me whenever I ask her.  And just as my prayer warriors may send me a message to let me know they are praying for me....my dear St. Therese has sent me several messages, reminding me she is never far, and always interceding on my behalf.  One of the very first times I can remember her really walking with me was when I asked for her prayers when I was choosing colleges.  The moment I saw the campus of the University of Southern Mississippi, I knew that is where God was call me to attend.  Even though I did not know anyone else attending, and it was out of state...I knew I was supposed to be there.  Because in the very front of the USM campus is a beautiful garden of long stem roses!! And of course an important part of our story is that Steve and I met at USM.  Thanks dear St. Therese, for the roses!! 

With the military we move often and have lived in several houses.  Starting with our very first house, 15 years ago, we have had a rose somewhere around our houses.  Our first house had only one flowering plant when we first moved in...one white rose bush.  Every house since then has had a rose somewhere near it!  Even the house in Maryland that we rented.  Since we were only going to live there a year, we rented a townhouse.  While still in Mississippi, we found the house with a rental company, and sealed the deal before moving there.  I was very anxious about getting to the house when we moved there.  As we were putting the key into the door, and I was still praying that it would be okay, and we wouldn't walk into a distaster...then I looked over, and saw a beautiful rose bush, right by the door.  I knew my St. Therese was praying and walking right there next to me!!  The house we are currently in is the only house that didn't have a rose near it before we moved in.  However, shortly after we moved in, my in-laws surprised me with this....

One of the most precious gifts St. Therese has given me is the intercession with our children.  When Clare was 3 and Jon was about a year and half, we started praying about a third child.  We were still young, and had some big life changes.  Of course we trusted our Lord, but wasn't sure what was the best time.  I went to my St. Therese.  I asked her to pray for us, to pray for our children (the ones we have already been blessed with and the ones that will come in the future).  I asked her to help us accept God's will and His timing.  On October 1, 2004 (the feast of St. Therese) we attended daily Mass.  Walking out of the church I saw a beautiful red rose laying across the sidewalk.  It looked as if it had just fallen out of a vase.  It was absolutely stunning and perfect!!!  At that moment, I knew, staring down at the rose, that I was pregnant. I could feel St. Therese praying for us and our children.  9 months later....we were blessed with our very special Anna THERESE. 

This was on Anna's 7th birthday.  If you look closely you can see a small rose bud.  On her birthday was the very first time this rose bloomed!!  We said it was her birthday gift from her namesake, St. Therese! 

Remember I said I asked her to pray for all of our children...little did we know that just a couple of weeks after Anna was born, in a country far from our own, another blessing was just starting his journey in this life.  And he would also be guided by this very special saint.  

You see, our son still waiting in Ch*na....is being cared for so dearly by a wonderful group foster home.  They have cared for him since we was an infant.  They have loved him and watched him grow his entire life.  They have not only helped him receive medical care, but a wonderful education as well.  These wonderful group of people call their foster home LITTLE FLOWER!!!  Yes....you read that correctly, Little Flower, as in St. Therese, the little flower.  Each of the staff, foster parents, and volunteers, live every day the example St. Therese has taught us...to love Jesus with every bit of your being....even in the every day little things.  

Once again, my St. Therese has showered us with roses!!!  Of course, I asked her intercession while we were praying about our decision to adopt again.  We could not have had a clearer example of how God is working....how HE LISTENS and answers our prayers.  Our precious son, has been LOVED so very much, every day of his life.  To make it even sweeter....the foster home practices our amazing Catholic faith!!!!  He is Catholic!!  He and his foster family attend the same Eucharistic celebration we do every week...the same Scripture readings we hear here in America, he hears in Ch*na!!  This gift makes us feel so connected to our son.  

I hope one day I will be able to spend my eternity showering others with prayers from Heaven.  I am so grateful for my dear friend, St. Therese, who is such an important part of our story.  

Dear Therese, please continue to pray for our son and for our family while we continue along this adoption process. Please be with him during times of struggles, fear, and uncertainty.  Pray for his foster parents and all of those wonderful people that care for him every day.  Thank you for your example, and teach us to love our Lord Jesus as deeply as you do.  Amen